Its nice to know that sometimes someone will think about a memory with you in it. Its nice to know you were loved by someone, at some moment in time. When you have the evening alone, engulfed in your bedroom, wrapped in your duvet. Your mind wonders, then as if by magic your in your own place. The place you go to isn't like a holiday destination. It's a risky place they'll effect your emotions. Curiously thinking about random time periods in your life can either make you happy or sad. You could be thinking about a nice time with your friends, or a darker thought about an ex. It all has its effect on you.
I have overcome this 'place' several times. Only a couple of days ago I had three hours to relax, i layed in bed and my mind went adrift. My original thought was sleep, some kind of power nap. That thought soon became a distant past as I thought about a dark part. This area of my head had been forgotten for a few months. I had been focused on other things, and not this one specific thought.
I laid there, before feeling happy and content with life in general. I felt a rush of sadness creeping in, it felt odd because it began to be anger. Then it transformed into a more mellow type of sadness.
God knows how you can change moods so quickly?
It was silly but it makes you wonder, can you actually control these damn things?
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