downfall of us all.

Im still alive.

I don't know why I've been so busy, its always a case of taking the step back. Taking the step off the ground and not going out and seeing what the world has to offer. That itself takes more time than keeping yourself busy. Although I've been at work, some lectures and seminars here and there. I have come across some emotions in the last few weeks which have never really came to light as much as they have before.

Obsession, Greed, Jealousy and Happiness.

I'm not trying to say that I've never seen these before while being at university, but my eyes have seen them much clearer since Christmas.
Obsession was a good one, i noticed it in the most obvious way. I have never known myself to hate someone because of it though. I mean we all have our own guilty pleasures; mine being a few things: pop tarts, sleep and my phone.
I've seen it more through the emotional sense of people. The need for attention, mainly over social networking sites. Its like they're trying to say HELLLLO to the world.. several times of the day, in the space of a few hours.
Usually you ignore such people but it gets to the point where people start to notice the wider side of it and make them the main name of discussion for said attention seeking. I do wonder if it will stop. The mood swings give me a headache.

I have found some happiness through these emotions. I have realised I need more time to myself. I need to make a new hobby. Learning guitar has been hard but its always something to smile about. It makes you smile when you realise your actually putting effort into yourself and not always on other people.
Im glad over the last 6 months I've learnt so much.  Definately makes me feel content and somewhat happy with everything, even if i have completely off days.