friends.

The underlying breath is the final truth. I came learn more about myself in these last few months than I ever have. I always compared things back to you. I have no idea why. You’re a virus, something that taints someone and stays with them even a while after you’ve gone. I’ve picked up the pieces and I’m not going to say thank you, you don’t deserve anything more than a goodbye, which would be a push at most. We all make mistakes, its just a way of life.

I’ve come to realise I have things many people don’t have, a closeness of friends. I’ve got individual groups I can talk to, broadened horizons. I’ve taught myself how to trust people who are genuine and are true friends. I’ve come to find myself an adorable sister-like figure. She makes me giggle and makes me feel like I’m normal just like everyone else and not a complete fuck up. She still manages to find me funny and interesting even though I get so paranoid I’m a boring person.

I’ve also met my best friend, someone who keeps me sane and helps me with literally everything. He’s seen me cry, seen me in so many bad times but we’ve managed to deal with even the toughed of problems. He isn’t going anywhere. 

My wife keeps me happy and reminds me I have got that sense of home even though I’m 80 miles away. She wouldn’t see me as a friend if it wasn’t for university. All I can say is god bless university.

I’ll be honest I think I’ve won, I have people who love me and it seems you struggle to keep that element.  This is my life and I love it, even if some times life isn’t how I want it.

Hahaha seems like me all over.

Enjoy your day and thanks for reading ^^